On Friday the 4th my outreach team left for Sydney to begin our outreach phase of DTS! The sad thing is I couldn't go with them. They are the people I have bonded with most so it was hard to have them leave, becuase I couldn't get my stinking money in! All of us have been anxiously waiting to go on outreach, get out of the house, and do Gods work, well they all got to do that. Meanwhile I was back at Newcastle utterly frustrated and confused. About two weeks ago when I found out that my team would be going to Sydney for a week I was really excited. I was the only one who hadn't yet been to the city and I would be able to go and just spend time there instead of just a day trip!
Noticing a common theme in my updates? I get really bitter about things often. But yes God always plans something better for me.
When I was praying about why I was in Newcaste still, in absolute frustration of being left behind as my team is out doing what WE all have been waiting to do, God was speaking that I need to find peace in situations that are not ideal. The world does not revolve around me and I cannot just sulk when things aren't as I like. I know God had me here to learn to appreciate what he is doing even if its not what I want to be doing.
I really struggled with being back at the base while my team was in Sydney. For one I was the only one who had not yet seen the city, and I felt like I was giving all of myself to God without Him providing for me. I was bitter, pissed, and really disapointed. I was staying back at Lewis house when I didn't want to, having to be out of my room. Oh right, new students were coming too. Lewis house has become a home away from home for me, and then all these new people come in, they live in my room and begin to get settled here. Weird at first. But I got over that.
So moral of the story I was not a happy camper with being in Newie still.
But Yesterday as I was doing outreach ministry with the team here I was determined to let it be Gods time, and do whatever he asks and not rob anything before it happened. Wow what a blessing! I don't even know why but I was just so happy to be doing these things, and I have become closer with the people on that team and I just had so much fun and felt so joyful.
That relaxed mood has translated to my weekend now, so far I have already watched 2 movies and I plan on watching more. Ya know that kind of weekend. I was just sitting checking my facebook and email talking to the people who I have spent the last couple days with and I said "I am glad I have been here." Literally the next second I looked over at my computer screen and one of my best friends said that her and her boyfriend together want to donate about $500 US dollars!!!! God had asked me to just be happy in what he sets before me, I had accepted that, then spoke it out and BAM there is his provision! I needed $847 AUD and I checked my account today and they said all I needed was $393 and I know of one other person planning on donating really soon. SOOOOO I do believe that I am somewhere between $200 and $100!!!!! WHAT?!?!?!
IT Is just so stinking dumb to doubt God! I worried for a total of 24 hrs, then accpeted that things arent't always great, let myself be joyful and not spiteful, and God was waiting to provide. Well Thank you so much Jesus. All I have left to say is Glory to God for being all he said he is. Just have a soft heart to what he wants to do then he will do it!
THANK YOU GOD
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